Reconciliation of the Past Year ...

The waves give us a constant reminder of how much repetitive our days could be.  It never stops!!  Life  in many ways is the same.. Sometimes we want to stop! Right now! Right Here ! But it is all about going on.........

Few off days.... A dawn of a (astrological) New Year... How many of us look back at the past year to reconcile our lives to see if the year brought us to where we want to be??

There were days filled with laughter...some with tears...disappointments...new hopes...fall backs.... achievements...surprises...new meetings...new friends...new enemies....new love...break ups...new beginnings....sad endings... It goes on...

We all have our own dreams and hopes about what we want in life and how we want things. Sometimes, I wonder if that was the reason for all negative effects we have in our life when we come across something unexpected. We dream / hope so much that we did not realize the reality itself could be so much different. We never think the rest of the days after our dreams fail could be so haunting that when it is reality, we try to reconcile !!! May be I am doing the same right now...in a way.. I am sure there are millions of us who look back to reconcile our lives to where we want to be and how we want to be.

What if there were no dreams?? What if it was about one day on earth? What if we never knew if we would live tomorrow or not? Do you ever wonder if your life was different to what it was today? Would you ever spend that day worrying about your past? Do you risk anything to live that day to the fullest?

I would choose the later and many would too.

Sometimes in life, we depend on other people too much in our professional lives, personal lives, family lives, social lives that at a point, we forget who we are without them. Some times you go on wondering who you are? What you are made of? because people around us has either changed us or has made us forgotten who we are. Take off all the memories people we loved added to our lives.. take off all the experiences we had in our lives to few years back where no one but you controlled your actions...That is you !

That is what I am trying to do right now with my life..I wonder how many of us want the same!!

May be all we have to do is be independent!! Let no one control you or your emotions...your past has to be remained as past.... Be the original person you are and enjoy your life...may be its easier to say but what if it is easier to do too? Are we bold enough to try??? 

Most of us just chase away good things in life..things that make us smile...things that bring a new perspective to our lives at the cost of not letting go of the past....

It will be a new year tomorrow ( at least astrologically because I can't wait for a calendar year to turn )...... And I think if at least some of us can look at it as a new beginning where we can free ourselves from hatred, anger, sadness and start living the life we all deserve - a challenging and an adventurous one, it would be a good year!!

Next year, when I am reconciling my life I only want additions to the brought forward balance!! I hope yours would be like that too :)

And I keep wondering what tomorrow would bring the new me !!