Break Me Not !

Tender words suddenly turns in to harsh..

She has no clue what to believe and what not;

It seems like the world is crashing in; her world is breaking apart;

She misses a world in you; she cannot explain how empty she feels;

Life has made her tough, so she smiles hiding her tears from you.

Did you know the things you called mistakes were a world to her on her own?

Did you ever think that you meant so much to her?

Did you know she let her guard off to let you in?

Well I think you knew all of it but still chose to force yourself out of her world.

She believed in you so much to be the first person to change her world,

change her perception about the world, about men, about life

But,

May be you once more proved her right!

the world is cruel and has no room for chances..

 

 

She has seen the sparks in your eyes;

Excitement in your voice;

Raising heart beat when she looks at you...

Eagerly waiting to be kissed by her lips..

So she doesn't want to believe your words now..

Caz she strongly believes that you rushed through things.

you were confused, scared of commitment, scared of the unknown..

may be scared that she was too strong for you!

 

May be the mistake you did was not give it all time;

let things flow slow, so time will figure things out.

I hope you make things right this time...

just by being your self and giving it time..

she is faithful, committed and loyal...yes you know it!!

May be the spark you want to see is all there but you are too blind by the circumstances

blind by the anxiousness and confusion..you feel nothing but a feeling of lost.

 

You miss her.. Don't you? You still wish you gave her a chance..

So why not? She is all yours out there..( by choice all yours )

May be taking time will take you there..

She is crying out loud, break me not! not again!

But she is strong, no matter what happens, she will rise strong! Stronger than ever..

Caz she will not lose her self over anyone..

But boy try and break her not!!

 

 

 

A moment of truth..

As strong as she may seem, today reality did struck her. She was panting for breath, so helpless. Embarrassed and given up, she felt so weak. So much that she felt like the world is crashing in. Today was a day filled with lot of moments of truth that she had to believe that may be god or nature is speaking to her to convince her about who she is. The day was indeed full of surprises. Things that someone would call co-incidents seemed to happen one after the other. All those happy moments and news in the morning made her do the happy dance million times. Such a teenager at times - she is. Well looks like someone is making her feel so!

 

 

Then the evening - physically broken, mentally let down, she was never made up for giving up but she had to and it broke her down. Exposed herself to so much of insecurity and doubt. She sits under a tree when everything seems blurry and sophisticated. She was barely conscious. Shivering hands, sweaty palms, numb body in pain, unconscious mind - all of it was taking a troll on her. She was feeling lonely, weak and exposed. Many a times the thought of letting this dark secret ( admitting she was weak and gave up ) be told to someone special crossed her mind - she wasn't sure if she should. She sure did not like to see a loss of faith in her but she can never be fake, she will never lie. So she chose what was right! Wrote everything with shivering , sweaty fingers and hoped she stayed conscious to be done. She will never forget all the thoughts that occupied her mind.

 

Surrounding scared her so much..Moms doing yoga with their kids to a rhythm, couples laughing and walking by, parents with kids playing, people running and cycling, voice training classes and a choir singing, five squirrels randomly running all over the place, branches of a tree resembling a naked woman....It was all happening so fast and that was just a moment of truth for her to realize who she is. She vowed her self to work towards what she needs. She's got one more year and she will get there.

 

Last entire month of her life seemed like everything that happened was meant to be and the feeling was great. All of it lead to today and so many realities can never hit any human being like this in one day and surprisingly even meeting a good cop in SL !

 

Well life after all is so beautiful in its own way and when you least expect something, it gives you wonders that you start believing about the power of moments. And yes she does now believe that in this life, there is always a purpose and nature will always have a way of showing you the road. It could be pretty blunt at times but what's better than making things so clear!  She loved it as much as it scared her.

 

She is still very strong in her mind and may be if she did not give up today, she would have never experienced this life changing moment of truth where she felt what it's like to be felt weak! If anything that happened today had any impact, it only made her a little bit more stronger. It takes a lot of courage to admit that you were feeling weak but the moment you do it, you will always find nothing but confidence in your self the same way she did. She will surely reach a few steps higher. I bet she is wishing for more moments of truth so she gets to know something more about herself a little bit better than yesterday!

 

 

When your time runs out

24 hours go by ; you call it day:

672 hours: a month it is called :

8736 hours gone ; a year has passed by!

 

December came with a surprise !